Did you ascend with me today?
I’m not sure if I’m disappointed or relieved that today has been slightly uneventful. I was prepared for chaos and blackouts just in case, but the only thing weird that happened to me was that I slept 11 hours last night (which I really can’t remember the last time that happened).
Our family has been doing some intense activations over the past few days to clear out past programming and be ready for this new age of love and light we are entering.
Like I said on my IGTV last night, I really do believe two separate communities/civilizations are being formed as we speak. It’s a weird concept for sure but then again, when we moved into our RV in 2015 I didn’t know anyone who did such a thing (although I’m sure there were a few out there) and by 2018 there were so many full-time RVers with kids.
If we look at why the RV lifestyle became so popular, it really came from a desire to truly enjoy life by connecting with like-minded people, nature, and most importantly our own souls.
That’s exactly the foundation of this new era.
While the technology aspect seemed scary to me, it’s only because I associated it purely with the control that is trying to be imposed on the world currently.
But as I study and connect with more people…
As we finished up an activation right at the time of the conjunction with Saturn and Jupiter, I felt clarity in my existence.
I’ve always struggled with defining and monetizing my purpose here on Earth and I’m starting to see how this new Age of Aquarius could eliminate my struggle.
My purpose (as a numerology 9) is to live by my highest integrity, aligned to my heart’s intuitive wisdom, and lead by example.
My intuitive wisdom has been telling me all year (or maybe even longer) that I’m straying from my purpose. For me, any time I act from fear and not from love or passion, it doesn’t turn out the right way.
Luckily, I adjust quite quickly but there have been two fears leading me astray. The first is the fear of a vaxx that would make my children infertile and the second, fear of not having enough money.
They are both legit fears but they shouldn’t be so powerful that they cause me to be a deer in headlights, frozen in a house where the sun rarely shines and with nothing that ignites the fire within me.
I’m spending a lot of time meditating on where the line exists between acting from wisdom and losing my inner integrity. I’m really lucky to have Gabi who researches so well and finds the right people to guide my decisions and navigate this fine line between safety and happiness.
So much more evil has to be exposed and as much as my happiness lies on the road, in the trees, on mountain peaks, in the ocean, and under the golden sun, I also know that what I’m doing now is important in guiding others too.
I feel like a cheetah sitting on the savannah digesting it’s food, waiting until hunger sets in again. Knowing that at a moment’s notice it’ll be ready to sprint, to chase, to cut in whatever direction is necessary.
Patience is hard, but in the meantime, I know I have something to offer the world in a different realm.
In 2015, I started this new journey purely from intuitive wisdom. I wrote 2 books in which I allowed myself to be vulnerable and showed the truth of who I am and what I believe in as far as health and fitness in my book, A Playful Life, and again in travel with my book, A Road Less Traveled.
But then, I let self-doubt creep in. I allowed my subconscious to live by fear and told myself “The books aren’t good enough and nobody cares.”
Those are lies.
They are amazing books that could’ve helped hundreds of people today be healthier and more independent thinkers and I will be working much harder in this new age of Aquarius to share the insights, truth, and wisdom of those two books as well as continue to lead by example.
In addition, I can clearly see how the “Monetize! Monetize! Monetize!” messaging I kept hearing in the entrepreneurial world was leading me away from my purpose.
I honestly struggle so much with seeing how to make a lot of money given my skill set.
I’ve been asking myself, Is it that I have a subconscious money issue? Do I not feel worthy of money? Am I afraid to value myself? Am I not smart enough to figure out how to be rich and successful?
I honestly don’t know.
The more I study my individual astrology, the more I understand that my purpose is to lead by example and share my journey.
Every time I step away from just being me and trying to think about how to package what I do into a course or product, it doesn’t work. I feel lost, frustrated, and overwhelmed.
What I do know is that when I used to write more like this and less based on SEO or to earn money by driving traffic, I was happier. I felt more inspired. It truly made me excited to jump out of bed and write.
Ever since we moved into a house, it’s been hard for me to write. One of the things I told myself when we decided to hunker down in this house was that I would finally figure out how to better monetize the blog. But I haven’t been able to do it.
Not because I’m not smart enough or not disciplined, it’s because it’s not coming from the right place. It’s too forced, it’s not from my core inspiration.
One of the visions I saw in my meditations lately is to stop trying to force the money and just go back to what I love.
This. Writing what I’m thinking and feeling and not just informative blogs.
I’m really excited and hope you enjoy my muses and if you do, please let me know since I’m working hard on overcoming my annoying self doubt that lurks behind everything I do.
For our family, everything we do is about merging health and consciousness. It’s about aligning the mind, body, and spirit to act as one.
Don’t fear the consequences, fear inaction.
Don’t fear a virus, fear not being healthy.
Don’t fear going to the same job for 30 years, fear what it would be like to be on your death bed filled with regret.
Health is in your control. Action is in your control.
The evil will be exposed soon and I think anyone who wants a second (or third, fourth) chance to live life on their terms, will have that chance.
Now is the time to filter through the noise and reflect on what that second chance would be.
Now is the time to examine our limiting beliefs, our traumas that keep us frozen in time, our passions, our truest desires, and our life’s purpose.
Now is the time to get healthy. To decrease the inflammation, to optimize our metabolism, to reset our equilibrium. Our bodies are designed to heal. It knows how to thrive when we give it the nutrients it needs.
What gets in your way?
I’ll tell you, for me, it’s boredom. I catch myself reaching for that glass of wine or beer at night because I’m not stimulated. It becomes an escape that I call “fun” but it doesn’t serve any of my higher goals of health or consciousness.
In fact, it just adds to the inflammatory process. At first, it might be a few restless nights sleep and then all of a sudden I realize I haven’t slept deeply in a week. Something little like that could easily be dismissed but if it is, it will eventually lead to much bigger problems.
For now, I set aside my one glass of nightly “fun” and am focusing on detoxing my body. I have no idea how long I plan on not drinking because I don’t like to put those kinds of limitations on my thinking.
Whether it’s health, fitness, adventure, or travel, I always make decisions based on intuition and never on dogmas. After partying too hard last weekend in Whitefish, my intuition said it was time for a reset.
If you also feel like you need some time to reset your health, detoxify your cells, and heal your body, be sure to be on our email list below where I’ll be sharing more of what I’m doing to regain balance and nurture my body.
Sending you love, strength, and clarity on the first day of the Age of Aquarius.
Saturday 16th of January 2021
I believe you are on the right track! This post rang true for me in many ways, thanks for going with your intuition and writing this post. I personally have experienced so many of the same awarenesses and observations about myself and what's going on around us. My husband and I have put our health and mindset first and foremost this past several months and our decisions for healthy living and awareness continue to show positive results. Theres a struggle for sure dealing with old mindsets and habits that crop up but I'm feeling more resilient every day! We're looking forward to a long road, hiking and backpacking trip this late Spring/early Summer. Your website has a lot of great advice we will be referring to! So Glad you and your daughter put it together. Stick with your gut and keep writing from you heart; many will find you!!